SPBB FEELS

Tomorrow or shall I say a few hours from now and its one of the most awaited event, MCGI members is looking forward to. However, before this event, there are so much sadness, stress and not so good things I encountered. 

Maybe two weeks ago before the first week of April, ang dami ng stress. Mga bagay na nakakaiyak. From people, to your closest relatives, friends and worst is yung sarili mo mismo. It gives me heartache and headache at the same time. 

There are instances when all i wanted to do is to keep my mouth closed. Ayoko ng magsalita because i think that it will just worsen the situation. 
Sabagay 10 years na with God's help.. marami ng taon, luha at sakit na lumipas.. Minsan masasabi mo na lang sa sarili mo "Hindi ka pa nasanay?" 

Ganun nga talaga siguro. Iiyak ka muna bago tumawa. sabi nga sa narinig ko "Minsan kailangan mong malungkot para sumaya ka" .

These times are also the chance na mag heal ang wound, mag patawad, at mapatawad. 
I do hope na sana dumating din ang araw na maging okay ang lahat. I may not know how to say things that are kept inside my heart. Mga wishlist na hindi materyal na bagay. 

Umaasa pa rin balang araw ang sugat ng kahapon ay maghilom.. Anyone reading this that in sometime, somewhere I have caused you pain, from the bottom of my heart I am truly sorry. May God keep us all.